Then they decided to turn the torture up a notch! This Wednesday, they call and tell me they received more of my test results back and true to form, there is something else wrong with me! I have a blood clotting disorder, which basically means I develop a clot that cuts off the blood flow to the placenta and the cord, thus ending my pregnancies. But not to worry, they have a solution to the problem: a baby aspirin a day, another folic acid supplement, and a SHOT everyday! But not a shot administered in the comforts of a doctor's office and administered by a healthcare professional--one that I have to do. I immediately protested and handed the job over to James! And here's the kicker--I have to have a shot everyday until the baby is delivered.
The first shot completely freaked me out, I will not lie. I was crying and shaking and saying we are not doing this! But thankfully, James was calm and said "I'm just going to do it." And he did and it hurt! The second time was not as bad because I knew what was gonna happen and I knew that James would not hesitate and have to start over. And we found a better spot with more fat. Even though James says I better be nice to him all the time since he will be giving me 210 more shots, I still think he deserves the Husband of the Year award!!!
Yesterday, I had another ultrasound and everything is still going great for the seven week mark. We were able to see the heartbeat and it made me relax just a little. However, this is how far I made it last time. We heard the heartbeat and then next week, there was nothing. If I can just make past 8 weeks, it will make me feel so much better! I wish I could just be a normal girl with a normal pregnancy. The feeling that it could be over at anytime is so stressful. Any pain I feel freaks me out. It also makes it hard to be too excited because it just hurts that much more to have it end. So everyone please pray that little PattyFaye makes it! (this will not be the baby's name btw, Macy!)
